This is always a pain in finding something out that you shouldn’t have, and it is highly unlikely that the feeling will go away any time soon.
Congratulations, you have been ungraded from utter dislike to utter hatred. 
Excuse me while I indulge myself with… myself. Ha ha ha. Yeah, to your left is me in a standard mirror self-portrait that is not uncommon to many female-owned Multiply accounts. It’s only second in popularity to the one-handed self-portrait, which I have never been able to master, hence I will not showcase my attempts at that here.
But please, let me bask in a little self-importance for now. One of the perks of being in the Editorial Board is that I get to do test shots with different photography studios for our graduation pictures. Imagine getting all dolled up and whoring in front of professional photographers for free. Teeheehee. It’s a relief to know that, with a thick layer of well-applied cosmetics, it is possible to capture a decent picture of me. And I don’t look half-bad. Ha ha ha.
Oh shit. You see, whenever the opportunity for me to be all made up and pretty strikes, I suddenly transform into some girly girl. I go through bouts of vanity, where I obsess over how I look and go wild on the beauty products, then I get tired because it’s way too much work to try to look good everyday for no one’s benefit but mine. Hahaha. I’m going through that phase again, thanks to the test shots and the Artistry gift pack I received on the opening night of the Philippine Fashion Week. I’ve been reading up on make-up and even started using the toner and moisturizer that’s been sitting untouched on my bathroom shelf since Christmas. Haha. Really, I almost never care about what I look like but I can’t deny the value of taking care of myself and the handsome payoffs it could bring. Still, like I said, it’s hard to be consistently vain. Actually I have a hard time being consistent about everything so yeah. Haha.
Oh well. I guess this is just my way of coping. I still refuse to think about school and how I lack 3 more units and how those 3 units have to be PI 100. Among other things. Lather up!
I was never the poster child for forgiveness. It’s one of those things I’m really awful at - that, and meaning what I say. Right now I’m at wit’s end, trying to find it in my heart to forgive three people who have disrespected me greatly. It’s tough, and I probably cannot do it. I mean, I think I deserve so much better than that.
Between being busy and being idle, I’d still prefer to be busy. At least there’s always something to look forward to. Being in the edboard of our yearbook has been fun so far. My co-editors are all my friends and I just know we can deliver a really great yearbook.
Haha, okay, another failed attempt at a decent update. There isn’t really much going on, except maybe for my Mandala and Buklod duties, and I bet you wouldn’t want to hear about that. Ugh, I’m not good at this whole blogging thing anymore.
It’s not even the new school year yet, and my decision to accept two executive committee positions is taking its toll already. Hmf. Well, at least I’m still feeling a happy kind of stress. I’m still having fun. No regrets - yet.
Marielle is a 20-year-old Psychology student at the University of the Philippines, Diliman. She likes to sing, eat, shop and stay online for hours on end. She constantly tries to keep her personal life in check, so this blog of hers probably doesn't help. (Who is this Marielli person?)
